Monthly Archives: May 2015

You May Quote… #6

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This week’s quote is actually a partial poem. I got it from The Huffington Post’s Midday Meditations a couple of weeks ago. Hope you get the tranquility I got from it. Carry on!

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Sunflower Sutra (portion) by Allen Ginsberg

A perfect beauty of a sunflower! a perfect excellent lovely sunflower existence! a sweet natural eye to the new hip moon, woke up alive and excited grasping in the sunset shadow sunrise golden monthly breeze!
How many flies buzzed round you innocent of your grime, while you cursed the heavens of the railroad and your flower soul?
Poor dead flower? when did you forget you were a flower? when did you look at your skin and decide you were an impotent dirty old locomotive? the ghost of a locomotive? the specter and shade of a once powerful mad American locomotive?
You were never no locomotive, Sunflower, you were a sunflower!
And you Locomotive, you are a locomotive, forget me not!
So I grabbed up the skeleton thick sunflower and stuck it at my side like a scepter,
and deliver my sermon to my soul, and Jack’s soul too, and anyone who’ll listen,
—We’re not our skin of grime, we’re not dread bleak dusty imageless locomotives, we’re golden sunflowers inside, blessed by our own seed & hairy naked accomplishment-bodies growing into mad black formal sunflowers in the sunset, spied on by our own eyes under the shadow of the mad locomotive riverbank sunset Frisco hilly tincan evening sitdown vision.

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Mommy and Me Monday #2- The Thompson Family

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How many children do you have and what are their ages?
I have 4 children and one on the way-  
13. boy
8. girl
6. girl
9mo. girl
and due 6/20 girl
 The 13year old, 8year old, and the 9mo old are mine through birth. the 6yr old we have full custody of her. She is a cousin technically. 
 
What is ONE song that reminds you of your child(ren)?
I like to move it from Madagascar (movie). We have watched those movies over and over and over again… I think I may have most of the lines memorized!! lol
 
How would you define your style of parenting?
I would say I am more laid back and relaxed. I try not to stress about every little thing… though I do have my moments. I feel kids need to be kids yet still learn responsibility. That sometimes they have to learn from their own mistakes. And I will never be perfect and there will always be someone to point it out in life… so I try and take a day at a time, love them and make sure they know they are loved. Tell them all the time. Pray for them and with them. And just try and be the best I can be
 
Do you have a restaurant or favorite place that you will only go with your child(ren)?
I guess this would have to be chuck e cheese cuz i sure am not going to go with out my kids!!! lol. 
 
What is one piece of advice you would give your child(ren) that can apply to their entire life?
Be yourself. No matter what there will always be someone to tear you down. God made you just the way you are because you are special to Him just like that. Life comes in seasons… today may be hard, but tomorrow will be better.  Always, always, always, have faith in God. Pray. Have a relationship, not just when you need Him… but always- good and bad. God Loves You. 

You May Quote…#5

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Today’s quote is one from Dorothy Day and its a really good way to introduce a new feature I’d like to add to Mommy In Color. It’s going to be called Faithful Friday and it will be starting next Friday. Lately, I’ve been trying to reconnect with God and I feel like I need to share that experience with you. As always I’m going to speak honestly and from the heart. Some days I’ll give a full post and other’s will be a Scripture that moved me. I hope you enjoy it!

Old School Blogging: I am…

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If you want to join head on over to The Miss Elaineous Life and get in on the fun!

I am learning about God

I wonder what my mom would think of me now

I hear my brother’s obnoxiously loud t.v. Lemme go turn it down

I see my daughter’s worn unifor from today piled on my burnt out t.v. Yeah, I’m not a good housekeeping kind of girl

I want ARGO cornstarch. Its my favorite snack. Yes, I eat it right out of the stay fresh container…what’s your point? Oh, and this

I am just trying to figure out what Jennice is all about.

It’s Gonna Take A Miracle

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I very rarely talk about my love life on here mostly because I don’t have one. However, in  the spirit of solidarity among single mom who are dating, I am going to open up a little bit.

I recently ended a six year…situation with a man I am very much in love with. I can’t exactly say he was my boyfriend and he even describes us as close friends *side eye*. We didn’t spend as much time together as regular couples do and he only lives one borough away from me. We spoke to each other everyday via text, Facebook messenger, Yahoo messenger, or Tango video app.  When we did see each other we enjoyed it. He made me smile, he made me think, and he made me feel good. It was easy to be in love with him, I’ve known him all of my adult life and I consider him my best male friend.

Our issue was I always coming up with excuses not to meet up with him when he invited me out. The reason was because my mother did not approve of him. Whenever I tried to have a woman to woman grown up conversation about him to her, she’d roll her eyes, suck her teeth, or make some nasty and mean remark. Sometimes we argued about him and it would just end with me having my feelings hurt. Eventually, it just became easier for me to not ask her to babysit for me and I would going without seeing this man or months, and a even a year would pass by.

He stuck it out but I guess I got friend zoned…well, “special friend” zoned. When this year rolled around, I decided that this was the year that he and I would reconnect and be in love. So, I started appealing to my mom. I told her I was in love with him and he was “the One”. She gave up her crusade of not wanting me with him and said she would gladly babysit Bubba when I wanted her to as long as I gave a couple days notice. Me and “the One” spent Valentine’s Day Eve together, and that was it. Things got weird recently.

We had a conversation about where our relationship was headed and “the One” revealed to me that he wanted to wait five years to “get together” (not married) so that he could build his business. I let it go but it just kept gnawing at my brain. I’m 25(this was before my recent birthday) and he is 36. We’ve known each other for six years but he doesn’t want to marry me, he wants to “get together”. I asked him a couple of times if he was willing to compromise his time frame and he said no. The five year plan is fine for new couples but not us.

As I ask him more about what he wants, it is revealed to me that he isn’t sure if he wants to remarry and that he doesn’t want a girlfriend. Oh, ok. So what the f**k does that make me, bruh? I started having those feelings of doubt, humiliation, guilt, sadness…all the things you feel when you know a relationship is over.

A couple of days before my birthday, I realize that I need to refocus on getting myself together. I had to stop being so wrapped up in what our relationship is or isn’t because he wasn’t losing any sleep over it, so why should I anymore? I told “the One’ that we should no longer be in touch because I had to learn how to not have him in my life. Initially, I asked him if we could work on us,told him I was in love with him, but to no avail. He had started seeing someone else. When he told me, he then proceeded to act like we could have a regular conversation after a statement like that. I HATE having my feelings dismissed. It’s Pet Peeve #1.

Let me be perfectly clear, “the One” did stick through 6 years of nonsense between me and my mom that kept us apart. He didn’t have to stick it out, but he did so for that I guess he deserves some props.My issue with him now is that we don’t want the same things.In five years, he still may not want what I do he isn’t going to budge on his five year plan.I’m not saying he has to. But I want to be a wife in five years and now that I’m aware of his uncertainty, I owe it to myself to detach emotionally and wait on someone who does want what I want. Like the Deneice Williams’ song implies “Its gonna take a miracle to make me love someone new, cuz I’m crazy for you”. I wonder how long that miracle will take…five years,perhaps?.

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Mommy and Me Mondays #1

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How many children do you have and what are their ages?

I have one little girl and she is seven going on 27…geez I sound like my mom

What is ONE song that reminds you of your child(ren)?

I have a bunch but since I have to pick one I choose <a title="Got To Be There by Michael Jackson". Take a listen and tell me it doesn't make you think of your own daughter

How would you define your style of parenting?

I’ve always been a go with the flow kind of gal and its no different with parenting. Bubba has a daily routine(except on weekends), but other than that, I play everything by ear.

Do you have a restaurant or favorite place that you will only go with your child(ren)?

I don’t know why I asked this question because all of my sacred places have been desecrated with firends’ birthdays and such but she always wants to go to Applebees. I love their bourbon blackand bleu burgers and she loves…ME!

What is one piece of advice you would give your child(ren) that can apply to their entire life?

It’s going to sound cheesy but it rings true at any point in life…Be yourself

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Mother’s Day Reflections

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I remember the day I met Bubba The nurse bought her to me all wrapped up. She sat her bassinet next to my hospital bed and left us alone. I was terrified. Here I am, 18 years old and a lifetime worth of responisbility was placed in my care. I remember thinking ” Nika, you can’t do this”, you are going to mess this child’s life up. You have nothing to give her”. I was too scared to even pick her up. Then she started whining and fidgeting and I knew she needed me. So, I hesitantly picked her up, and she openend her eyes and grabbed my finger. Her facial expression seemed to say “Mommy, don’t you dare wimp out on me. I need you to be strong”.

Most people say that they instantly fell in love with their children the moment they saw them. Not true for me, I was sad because I bought into the “fact ” that my child was set up for failure because her mother was a teenager. I had ruined her life just by getting pregnant with her. I was already a bad mother. Society was right about me. Because of me, Bubba was always going to be ten steps behind children who were raised by older women within the safe confines of marriage. Way to go, mom

Something amazing happened when I tool her home. This feeling of…knowing what she needed before she needed it started happening. It was like I was psychically linked to her needs. All of her cries sounded different to my ears. I knew the cry of hunger,sleepy, and  restlessness. During my pregnancy, I had researched all of the things I should expect and now that Bubba was out of my belly, I researched this feeling I had. I found out that my mother’s intuition had kicked in. According to the research I would always have it. I would always know when Bubba needed me. I felt powerful knowing this and I wasn’t as afraid anymore. Everything was going to be alright.

Seven years later, I haven’t ruined her life or damaged her psychologically in any way. She is amazing. Yeah, I’m biased but so what? She doesn’t look like me but she is sensitive like me. She loves completely and unconditionally like me. She has “kids intuition” and she knows what am I’m feeling even when I try to hide it. When I’m sad, she will abandon her precious You Tube, come into my room and just hug me. No words needed.Just my baby comforting me. Bubba plays Michael Jackson songs when I’m down and then she’ll get me to dance with her. When she is sad, I read her favorite book, Guess How Much I Love You. Her favorite part is “Guess How Much I Love You? As high as I can reach, to the moon and back…But ever mother reading this knows our love for our children goes way past that. It recognizes no limitations and heeds to no timetable.

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HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!1