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Thoughts on 30

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I’m 30 years old now. I still can’t believe that. When you have what’s called a milestone birthday,it really makes you think. I let the Devil get in my head and tell me I was a failure at life. He played bsck to me the lives of those around me and pointrd out how I falk shorrt of that. I fell for it hook,line,and sinker instead of focusing on the good things. I’m alive,I have a home, I eat every day, my kids are healthy,I have no majot health issues. Thank you God for those blessings.

I do feel unfulfilled in my life, though. I don’t have money, a job, and cam BARELY feed my family. Plus, my mom is very sick and won’t seek medical treatment. She’s having kidney failure qnd heart problems and I think she’s given up fighting for her life. That troubles me more than anything. I’ve tried talking to her about going but all I get is the brush off. That makes me angry because I feel like her giving up is selfish.But maybe she’s scared because she knows it’s bad and it may be too late. If that is the case, I would rather face it head on than do nothing. I jave prayed yhat the Lord will move her to take care of herself but it’s out of my hands, isn’t it? Since that’s the case I have to focus on getting my own life together. I called my aunt to clme over and see if she can talk some sense into her. If that doesn’t work, I’ll just pray that Mom reconciles herself to God before it’s too late.

My prayers lately have been for God to show me what my next steps should be in order to get my life together. He seems to be pointing me in the direction of crochet. I wanted tp3 sell some of it last year but had to deal with issues with my pregnancy. But this time, He seems to be revealing the plan to me in small achievable steps. He’s an awesome God because while I’m crocheting,my mind and hands are busy,not idle.

Mind you, I don’t know the first thing about being in a self made business. But God will show me because HE is my business partner. There is a podcast, B. Hooked, that I listen to about crochet that has skme episodes about being a business. I can start there. I have a few sample stitches Ive done and I can post them for people to see. Last night, before I went to bed I got a message from the Lord to make a unisex baby blanket. I have the right yarn for it and I’ll just read a pattern. This plan CAN work.

I posted on social media that I aas moving in silence and right away one of my friends called me a dumb ass and another tried to guilt me into telling her. I told them that I’ll revealed everything when the time is right. I don’t know how they’ll feel about that but I’m not worried about it. I’m exercising my right to be quiet. If they are my friends,they’ll understand. If not,may the Lord remove them from my journey. I feel a little lighter already about things and I have to keep my focus on the Lord.

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Ask and…

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I recently put out a call to my Peri Sisters for some help getting this blog to the next level. I was scared initially because I was embarrassed that after 6 years,I hadn’t monetized the blig or written any new pieces for other blogs/publications in years. But, I promised myself that I would stop living in fear,step out on faith and ask for the help I needed. The response to my call-to-action was great!

So far, I have someone who is going to help me update the look,someone to help me start monetizing,and even someone to help me put my plans/goals on paper. All of these ladies have been so wonderful and I thank God that I listened to His instruction that I ask for help. I’m motivated even more to walk in my purpose and “keep on truckin”(SN: Keep On Truckin’ by Eddie Kendricks is currently my ringtone. Yes, I still set my favorite songs as my ringtone. Don’t judge me.)

I have decided to appease to you,my readers,as well. If any of you could offer any sort of blog services or help to ke, I would greatly appreciate it. Unfortunately, I will be unable to compensate you monetarily,but if there is something you think I could help you with, I will be happy to do it. I thank all of you for sticking it out with me and am truly grateful for your support and readership. Three cheers for the new era of Mommy In Color!!! πŸ₯‚πŸΎπŸ₯‚